Experience Pondered to Ponder

To reach the satisfaction and happiness in life, that will make no longings in you anymore is one of the great achievement that I will ever have. Achievement that I consider as blessing from God: A blessing that, somehow, a challenge that will surely test me on how will I be living with it; how will be I engaged into it and how will I be effectively use it; will I just be happy, sit down and relax myself? or will I use it as a reason to help others to have theirs too?

Personally, I do not want this to come (though I consider it as an achievement). Knowing that as some people have their satisfaction and happiness, in some point, they will be contented with their lives. This is what I am afraid so. I am not actually afraid to be contented in my life but I am just afraid that this contentment will let me, somehow, to forget that, " Hey, it is not the end of everything! I am not the only man who deserves to be happy."

Why I am so into this idea? Because I just closely experience it. I personally became a "VICTIM": Victim in a web of a "NON-SENSE" relationship. In a relationship where I am just being used as something to be proud of but not being actually loved, a source of happiness...

In short I was taken for granted. I don't hate those people who uses others to be happy and satisfied with their lives but I treat them as an inner drive for me to avoid nurturing this stupidity and help others to be aware of it.

The experience made me stronger, stronger with my principle. Experience that TAUGHT me, something that I will carry and nurture as long as I live and as I am ready again to be in a relationship. An experience which I do not consider as a failure, but a mind calling for I to be more responsible not just simply in a relationship but also as how I regard people and life as a whole.


An experience to ponder indeed.