Happy Ending

Parte na marahil ng buhay ang makasakit' masaktan. Sabi pa nga nila mas matindi ang tama kapag malapit sa puso mo ang siyang dahilan; Mas mahirap tanggapin ang nagawang kasalanan maski malimutan ang sakit na nauuwi sa matinding pighati.

Minsan nang nasubok ang puso sa ganitong kawalan sa kauna- unahan, wari'y isang baguhan at ang mga pangyayari'y hindi maintindihan. Ang tanging alam ay kailangan kong ilabas ang unang luha sa pag-ibig na di ko inaasahang mauuwi sa pighati. Bagamat, ang katumbas ng luha wari'y mula noong ako'y sanggol pa lamang.

Akala ko noon, wala lamang at di naman talaga kailangan lumuha sa mga panahong naiiwan ka ng iyong minamahal. Naghahanap lamang ng karamay at pansin ang taong lumuluha na kadalasa'y nauuwi lamang sa pagkaawa. Kaya naman ako'y tila tinamaan ng bato at nasigawang, "Ngayon alam mo na?!" noong ako na mismo ang bida sa kwento nitong yugto ng buhay.



Maraming beses pang naulit ang ganitong pagsubok. Tila pagsusulit sa eskwelahan na kailangan saguta't ipasa kung hindi bagsak ka... ikaw ang kawawa... baka pagtawanan ka pa. Kung nagkakaroon nga marahil ng kalyo ang puso, marahil puno na ito't makapal na dahil sa walang ulit na pagsalang nito sa iba't ibang pagsubok. Ngunit sa dami-dami mang ulit na makasakit' masaktan, iisa lamang ang dapat kahantungan: ang matuto at magpatawad.

Sabi nila kapag ikaw ay natutong magpatawad at maski humingi nito, tinapos mo na rin at pinagaan ang kalooban mong bigat na sa dinadala.


Gaano man kahirap, yun ang nararapat. Gaano man kalalim ang sugat, saa't ano pa man mauuwi din ito sa kapatawaran. Tamang panahon at lugar lamang ang dapat hintayin at kapag ito ay dumating, lakas at kabukalang loob ay nararapat din.

Experience Pondered to Ponder

To reach the satisfaction and happiness in life, that will make no longings in you anymore is one of the great achievement that I will ever have. Achievement that I consider as blessing from God: A blessing that, somehow, a challenge that will surely test me on how will I be living with it; how will be I engaged into it and how will I be effectively use it; will I just be happy, sit down and relax myself? or will I use it as a reason to help others to have theirs too?

Personally, I do not want this to come (though I consider it as an achievement). Knowing that as some people have their satisfaction and happiness, in some point, they will be contented with their lives. This is what I am afraid so. I am not actually afraid to be contented in my life but I am just afraid that this contentment will let me, somehow, to forget that, " Hey, it is not the end of everything! I am not the only man who deserves to be happy."

Why I am so into this idea? Because I just closely experience it. I personally became a "VICTIM": Victim in a web of a "NON-SENSE" relationship. In a relationship where I am just being used as something to be proud of but not being actually loved, a source of happiness...

In short I was taken for granted. I don't hate those people who uses others to be happy and satisfied with their lives but I treat them as an inner drive for me to avoid nurturing this stupidity and help others to be aware of it.

The experience made me stronger, stronger with my principle. Experience that TAUGHT me, something that I will carry and nurture as long as I live and as I am ready again to be in a relationship. An experience which I do not consider as a failure, but a mind calling for I to be more responsible not just simply in a relationship but also as how I regard people and life as a whole.


An experience to ponder indeed.

Silence is Life

There are some points in life that I do not understand. Even if I've experienced some things as before it is still new to me . It seems that I just see life experience as simply a part of my life that possibly could be part of others, but then I do not have deeper understanding with it. I do not see life with a great purpose until I finally found silence and had befriend with it.
Silence is life. A perfect place where I can reflect and realize things that I have gone through. An exact place where I can able to see life with full of ups and downs but then has, initially, its purposes. An unique place where I can perfectly accumulate my life experience to help my self to become better and stronger.
With silence, I am able to effectively use my weaknesses to fortify my strengths. I can able to think positively with every threats of life. I am able to accept things as it have its purposes. As I am befriend with silence, I start to become a more competent person as I dwell with the challenges destined to me and conquer with negativism that I might have as I fight and persevere in this battle of life against "quitting": Quitting which I consider is just a product of loosing faith and withdrawing from ones principle. And knowing myself, I will not ever loose my faith and will forever stand with my principle in life as long as that I am with Him and of course with those I love. Though I find life as the hardest job to work for, my faith never puts me down. Though it is kind a hard to pursue if there is always pulling you down and everything seems useless despite of everything you have done, as I breath with my faith I still stand.
It is the only place where I can peacefully get rid off things that I am doubting of. The appropriate place to refresh and to go back. The place that I will not ever forget... A place called "SILENCE".Everyone has silence: in our hearts, minds and in our souls. Silence means light. There we still have God that helps us, guides us and bless us. That is why I can positively view life because I know that God is with me and I can feel His presence more in silence. It is not a dream, it is not death and it does not mean loneliness. Silence is the perfect time to see what is inside of our own.
I believe that those persons who are capable to have their silence are the lucky ones who find no difficulties in life. Silence will show realities in life that we could not just easily see.
In times of giving up... the best way that I can offer as my help is to help you must find your own silence as you find of course God in your mind, soul and your heart.
Silence is life.